go kiss a toad this christmas, the prince is yours.


charming mini me, no?


christmas christmas.

and all i want for it.. nah, shh, you dont need to know. well this year's didnt feel much like christmas. and i didnt even feel like going christmas shopping this time around. shocking, i know.

but for all time's sake,

merry christmas.


anyway,

homework makes me go crazy.

it makes me want to rip the papers into pieces and scream muahaha at the shredded bits. and then i just give up and plop my head on the table and stone.

and then i either start doodling or i come here to blog. or i do both. which is what ive done today after my unproductive, unsuccessful attempt to finish my holiday homework. and to think before school closed, i made myself promise i'd finish my homework before november ends. and now december has come and gone and ta-da, school reopens in like what 5 days?

i'll go buy my own tombstone now.


so this is my doodle of the day.


belated photos with my


crazy crazy, very crazy dog


this lifetime or this minute


family portrait.


teenagers vs adults.

a teenager is like an alien from another planet.

people give you a look like we're some extra terrestrial species like they cant understand you no matter how hard they try. and the look they give you is just plain creepy. they think your world is insanely weird and cannot comprehand your way of thinking(which in other words means they just cannot stand your impulsiveness).

and i think its hilarious how we can be the same species when obviously adults and us are what lightyears apart and disturbingly different.

and needless to say, getting along is like going through world war 3. save the fact that the only casualty in this war, seems to be always the kid.

so today, well today just didnt go so well.


dont get me wrong

amanda is a happy kid looking forward to tomorrow. and looking forward to falling asleep once im done with this post.

more photos from taiwan trip.






and the convenient comment my brother gave was "oh my gosh medusa"

hmmm haha i cant remember where this is





and we had fun in the playground in the cold.





even my mum had fun haha

starting to miss the winter over there.


so i figured,

something must have gone wrong along the way when i was growing up. like maybe the world started spinning the other way around.

but i might as well get used to it.

loved you lately


the most awesome time of the day:

is when i get back home, alone in my room and blast music through my speakers, drown out my thoughts and just completely and utterly stone.

that, haha, is my meditation.


well, that aside, today was odd.

tiring, fun, tiring, fun and really really odd with alot of stares on the way home.


cause we went home carrying bamboo poles in our hands and two more in our bags.

and we even went to watch twilight with the poles. in case you were wondering, the poles are for dance.

and in the span of about the 4 hours we were in tiong bahru plaza carrying the poles around, we were asked twice if we were pole dancers. haha well at least the two people who asked were both really nice aunties.

anyway,

"you're my own personal brand of heroin"

then i felt my heart melt like completely.

its always easier to believe in fiction. like if my life was a nightmare i'd probably rejoice cause i know sometime or another everything would be just the way it was and i'd wake up from it.

and its always easier to believe in something you want to believe in. so here, take your pick: choose what you want to believe in.

well, i ___(fill in the blank)___ you.

endlessly, blindly


shadows fall across the sky.


i am an emotional nutcase.

miss PMS is in an extremely bad mood today.

i have my emotions all mixed up. when did anger become disappointment? and how come i couldnt figure out that hope would turn out to be ignorance?

life's unfair blah blah blah. well that sucks.

give me a break.


its like the world i know is spinning out of control.

i cant hold on when there's nothing to hold on to.

kill me, would you?


my shadow's prettier than i am


haha looks like i already have a fan of my obesity.

dont worry, i used to be a hell of alot chubbier. but hey, everyone just adores chubby kids to bits, no? and they say, bigger is better right? haha ah oh well, not like i mind.

anyway,

today is one of those days i wish someone would shoot me.

i have a splitting headache from staring at my homework for over the last half hour thinking of a decent storyline to write my english essay on. and so far, my essay consisits of one word: the freaking title.

and then homework aside, i feel like pulling all my hair out, banging my head against the wall and crying till all of the water in my body floods my bedroom.

welcome to my world. okay fine, this is cliche crap. its more like, amanda is just plain insane.

heartaches arent heart attacks. its the feeling you get when you miss something so badly but you cant get it back. heartaches wont kill you. but sometimes i wish they do.

i miss being a kid.

dont you?

high heeled, lace lined


a little like prom


should you spot any spelling errors in the following, please kindly ignore them since sheesh my keyboard's all screwed up.

freaking keyboard makes me sound like i cant spell.

anyway,


wedding wedding.

congragulations ms ng. haha too bad now we cant call you ms ng anymore.


the really pretty ms ng her really really tall groom



the flower girl was so freaking adorable



and all smiles



camwhored like crazy that day.